Happy Easter, Happy Spring, Happy Bunny Day!

Yes. I love rockin’ bunny ears and blowing bubbles in the air wearing a bikini. It’s not immaturity, it’s called having fun. And if being mature means being boring, well… Call it what you want. If you can’t enjoy life, what’s the point? I know I’M in no hurry to fade away and die.

Oh, and if you want to see some creepy Easter Bunnies that have surely caused numerous cases of ingrained fear of rabbits, go here: http://www.happyplace.com/15235/the-creepiest-easter-bunny-photos-ever-taken?fb_action_ids=10151653895241414&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582

Love and light, baby. Love and light. Happy Easter and Happy Spring!  xo SuzyMae


Past epiphanies, soul journeys, and beautiful present-day chaos.

If not for meditation, my head would explode. Not literally, but I am surrounded by boxes, clothes, shoes, and all of the miscellaneous stuff New Yorkers accumulate in our small apartments.

I’m trying not to slack on my blog posts this week, but preparing for a move is never an easy feat in New York City. Oh, I’m not leaving. I’m very excited to be moving closer to the heart of the East Village. I can’t leave, I REALLY fit in here! I can be as eccentric as I want, and not get run over by angry nannies with baby strollers. (One of the hazards of living uptown.) Since I have a LOT to do today, I’ll post one the first pieces of poetic words I wrote when I first moved to NYC.  It was mid July, and I was still in awe that I had made it here… via a soul journey and very long unplanned solo road trip from Austin, TX to Manhattan.




I was losing myself, patience wearing thin

Angels transformed into devils… brewing within

A caged beast, claws ready to break free

This girl cannot be tamed by your “reality”

Ah, it feels so grand to be free of my cage.  Life is what you make of it, I’m truly convinced.  Only the brave can survive in this world without living in regret, anger, and loss.  A great deal of strength is required in order to let go and take a leap of faith.  Jumping into my car two weeks ago, I wasn’t sure what awaited me on the other side… In spite of everything, I knew that I needed an adventure this summer.  A spiritual cleansing, a bit of soul-searching.  Freedom.These are the best years of my life, in spite of the emotional roller-coaster inside my head.  At the same time, I’d like to think that the best years have yet to come.  I’m truly honored and blessed to have amazing friends and family.  Without love we will simply fade away, jaded inside.  Fear will destroy the possibilities in life, so I embrace the unknown… Amazing things come to good people who have patience. Yesterday in the midst of my epiphanies, I strolled through the streets of Manhattan on my way to my first shoot of the summer.  My inner-child glowed, and I felt the energy of the city flow into me.  Recharged by legitimate happiness, I realized I can finally breathe again.  Satiated in so many ways, and looking forward to the future… I’m no longer afraid of the unknown.  In fact, I embrace it with open arms.  It feels amazing to be alive.

-SuzyMae Howard July 13, 2007




Throwback Thursday! My first Fashion Week runway show. Designs by amazing Alisha Trimble.

I had a wonderful surprise on my personal Facebook page today… my friend Alisha Trimble posted the video of my first Fashion Week runway show.  “Throwback Thursday!”

Flashback to 2008.  I was new to the big city, and I met Alisha in a little boutique in Soho.  After chatting and finding out she was a fashion designer, I let her know I was a model.  She ended up booking me directly for Fashion Week.  I was SO excited!  Just goes to show, it’s all about networking and making friends.  We’re planning an amazing shoot for spring… the best is yet to come!

Check out the video… See if you can spot me.  I’ll give  ya a hint, long blonde hair in silver-gray dress.  😉


“I have nothing to give other than the thoughts in my head. Maybe someday I can look in the mirror and see past the scared little girl, blue eyes brimming with tears.  I’ve been climbing mountains in my mind, desperately trying to leave the monsters behind.  All I can do is write down these words of vulnerability, in an attempt to figure out a way to untangle the intricate web inside my head.  Being alone in absolute silence frightens me to my very core.” -SuzyMae June 2002